How I fought off a motorcycle gang

IssueDecember 2018 - January 2019
Feature by Antje Mattheus


Connecticut Ave Biker Gang, 23 May 2008. Photo: Peachy Weasel (CC BY 2.0)

I grew up in a small West German village, Hamm an der Sieg. Without television or computers, my friends and I played outside and acted out adventure and survival stories. This daily practice taught me not to be afraid of physical encounters, and I developed a capacity for quick thinking and action. I didn’t know how useful that would turn out to be.

At 16, my mother and I moved to the large city of Hamburg. In the West Germany of the 1970s, motorcycle gangs started to appear and at times terrorise people.

In the summer of 1973, a friend from my old high school named Ulla came to visit me. We walked or used public transportation on excursions. As a young woman I received plenty of negative male attention and tried to avoid it. Whenever possible I made detours around construction projects, avoiding the gauntlet of humiliating and infuriating catcalls and suggestive hand movements.

But when Ulla and I walked through an underground subway passage to catch a train we were so focused on each other that I forgot to pay attention. Suddenly we were surrounded by a group of five or six large men.

Who is the leader?

I remember the dirty, beige subway tiles on narrow, echoing walls; the odour of sweaty men and leather; big bodies squeezing around us in a tight circle; aroused laughter; hands groping my legs, crotch and breasts; pulling at my clothes; bad breath; urgent, dangerous excitement.

I feel instant fear and then drop into clarity. I feel responsible for Ulla. I try to look past the big bodies. Will anybody help? Moments ago, the tunnel was full of people but no one will come because we were pushed into a corner, and our adversaries are huge and members of a motorcycle gang.

I can’t fight the whole group, but confronting the leader could help.

“My physical and mental stance had to exude power.”

I take a breath, open my eyes wide and sink into deep calmness detached from the frenzy of bodies and hands. I make myself feel tall and big – I am tall – and, just like when impersonating Prince Ivanhoe as a child, my body and mind grow more powerful. I ask in a loud, steady voice: ‘Who is the leader?’

I notice the small signals. The men’s bodies and eyes turn incrementally to a man who stands a few inches outside the tight circle, as if watching, allowing, guarding. He is a tall, blond-brown, bushy-bearded, wide-stanced man whose eyes smile with the joy of sex and power.

That is his weakness, I think. He loves power. And he wants people to know he has it.

I look into his eyes, and my gaze remains locked despite the commotion. I see in him the internal conflict that power brings — joy and loneliness. I speak loud without fear: ‘Please. Tell your men to get off us.’

My voice is dignified — no wavering, no provocation, a clear acknowledgement of his power to harm or help.

Surprise flits over his face. He blinks. His lips curl and I know he has chosen to help.

‘Let them go.’

I feel the men’s reluctance to do as he says.

Despite being pushed, I stay locked to his eyes. With a slight nod and smile, I communicate that he made the right decision, that I know how difficult it was to make. And again he says to the men, this time with aggravation: ‘Let them go.’

The circle opens. ‘Thank you,’ I speak to his lips, and Ulla and I walk away.

We walk past a corner to a larger hall. We lean against a wall and tremble. I remember nothing else about the day.

Refuse to be a victim

As an activist and trainer, I have discussed self-defence experiences with others and looked for common themes, for what professionals call ‘best practices.’ One is a refusal to accept victimisation as inevitable.

Despite great odds, Ulla and I stayed calm, either because of natural ability or, in my case, because I trained myself through play. We didn’t follow the script of the attacker, which allowed us to develop our own strategy for protection, take the initiative and derail the attack.

I also know of times when someone’s strategy failed, and I know how important it is to not in any way to blame those of us who are hurt or killed.

The subway event lasted only a few seconds and was primarily nonverbal, but a lot happened in that short time. I decided that calling for help, fighting or pleading would not work. I had to stay calm and not do what they expected from a victim. The group was too large and attack-focused to deal with as a whole, which meant my best chance was to deal with a person who had influence.

I then identified the leader and assessed how he might help. Most leaders, especially in gangs, need to prove their power to themselves and their followers. His face told me about the arrogance and joy of power, but I also saw loneliness and an inkling of humanity.

By asking for his help, I made the gang’s actions his choice, and I offered him the opportunity to prove both his goodness (even if it was hard to see while being attacked) and his ‘manhood’.

Using the calmness and acceptance I had learned by paying close attention to horrendous war stories, I was able to express empathy, openness and wisdom. By showing him my face and body, I also used my gender.

To do that I walked a fine line – to be liked and win support but not to be identified as a helpless female. My physical and mental stance had to exude power, and my words had to be strong and calm and not play into their stereotype of weakness.

I communicated through never-wavering eye contact (which does not work in every culture) and a relaxed, open-body posture facing in his direction. With my lack of fear and hate, I created what we call in group psychology a ‘safe container’ where he could connect with his own goodness and use his power against the group’s wish to victimise.

There’s nothing new about this strategy. Seeing the humanity in one’s enemies and winning them over has been done countless times, and it can be done countless more.